You would make a lot of money doing it, you’re tall and thin. 

And I have a love for lingerie.  I really do!  I always have, ever since I was little, it’s an obsession of mine.  And I always thought, man! I have all this lingerie I could put it to use! 

Several years ago, I had a connection with a homeless shelter, and I know this is horrible to say, but there were a couple of these women who; they’re young, they’re poor, they’re homeless, and they had small children. I thought, ‘Oh my god, you could make a fortune! You are so attractive. I could get you a job tomorrow making two grand a week and you wouldn’t even have to fuck!’  And I thought, ‘Huh, too bad sex work isn’t an option for you folks.’ 

Yeah, I envy people who can do that.  Because I have so many issues just talking to somebody. 

It’s one of the reasons why I’m so protective of sex work is I used to be so painfully shy and I really feel like it has made a really big difference for me in terms of confidence and in terms of how I feel and how much confidence I have.  I don’t think it’s necessarily helped my ability to relate to people but it’s definitely given me a lot more confidence as I do so.  Although I think its hurt me a little bit in that I swear every other word and I can’t stop any more.  I used to know I was doing it, now, I don’t I just do it.

It’s not because you’re a sex worker, I do that too. 

Oh, I know, it’s not because I’m a sex worker, but there is no pressure to stop.  If I had a straight job I would have had to stop by now because I would have gotten fired.  You couldn’t say 'fuck' every third word so you wouldn’t be able to get a job doing that.  There is no pressure to quit. And there’s no incentive.  And things like, I can say whatever I want and it doesn’t matter.  So, tell me more about your religion, your job, how much money do you make?  It’s completely acceptable; you can do whatever the fuck you want.  You’re in this complete world where there are no rules.  That has not really helped me advance in the regular world because you can’t talk to people the same way.  And though the years of experience that I would have had doing better in social situations I haven’t gotten because I can just still do whatever the fuck I please.  And of course, you can say anything about sex that you want that just springs to the top of your head.  Yeah, you can’t do that the rest of the time and there’s nothing stopping me, so, I haven’t really learned that lesson.  But overall I feel like it’s done so much for me, you know.  Although, on the negative side, it’s made me really vain.  I never used to be like this.  It’s just this constant obsession with appearance. And just every little thing.  I never used to be like this and I don’t think I would be if it wasn’t for sex work, I don’t think I would be one of those.  So that’s negative.  But other than that overall very good.